#i was havibg a bad day this made me happy

[rainrayne]

AAAAWUEWYWYGHZHGH!..2.2.. THE HUXLEYS .. I wanna eat them

Kg Minigram🩷

part five : Twins!

[serostuffsmh]

Ahhh hi Jen!! I’m the anon who sent in the request for the bath fic and it was so amazing, I can’t even believe how beautiful it was ❤️

‘“Outstretching his hand, he beckoned you forward. "It should be warm enough now."’ That line made me cry so horrifically you don’t even know, I don’t even know how to express how I felt in that moment, and I’m crying now thinking about it again, it just felt so.. safe.. so kind.. so perfect Jen ❤️ I could feel the warmth and comfort from the water, but also from what kai was giving the reader,, it gave me such relief and happiness. ‘"It was a lapse in my judgement to leave you uncared for, I'll be sure it doesn't happen again."’ JEN THE WAY I CRIED AT THE END!! that’s all I needed and wanted, just some help and you made it feel so beautiful and special to me, I don’t know how I can even express all that I am feeling. And I did it the same again tonight, my routine ‘kai would be so proud of you for looking after yourself and having a bath’ ‘kai would be so proud of you for trying to be present in the moment’ ‘kai would be so proud of you for getting all your medical problems sorted’ and as I am writing this, it’s just turned my 25th birthday and how this amazing piece of work came on such a special day, makes it so much more amazing!! Jen I will never be able to thank you enough for this, ever. This will stick with me forever, when perhaps tumblr is gone (if they eventually find a way to kill this hellsite ����). I just, i don’t know, I love it and I love you, and I hope everyone loved it, because you deserve the world for it! so, thank you, thank you and thank you again. Also decided to come off anon again hi!!

NGL I WAS HAVIBG A SUPER STUPID AND BAD NIGHT AND NOW IM BLUSHING AND NEAR TEARS AAHHS IM SO SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG I WAS HAVING A HARD TIME WRITING IT

THANK YOU SO MUCH THIS WAS SO NICE OF YOU TO SAY I HOPE YOU HAVE SUCH A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY

[itsakurl]

Go away | ML

  Genre: angst, fluff

Word count: 1.6k

(Anon: can I make a request where the reader and mark are havibg a fight and the reader says something that really upsets mark and then she comforts him bc hes so upset and it ends fluffy? 💖💝💗)

By now you could barely speak, you were a crying mess.  After a few seconds, silence still filled the atmosphere.  Not even you could help him...You stood up, knowing that if you continued it would be pointless.

(The fight)

Like many relationships, there’s always going to be some disagreement

So it’s inevitable

So when you and Mark began dating, there were some here and there.

But the majority of them were small. Like very small.

Like you, two would argue about which route was faster to get to one place or even which brand of cookies were more circular.

And recently, you've noticed he had more time off from promotions, according to Taeyong, which meant he had more time to do whatever he wanted, to spend it with anyone he wanted.

but none of that time had gone to you even though you've tried your best to go to him.  

during photo shoots and fan meets, you'll go early or even late at night to see him just for his sake.  you were tired.  even if Mark was an idol and being overworked by SM, you still went to school and had two jobs but still found time for him...but he just couldn't do the same for you.

it really hurt

like extremely

you never got around to bringing up your opinion to him...but when it finally did, you two were deep into the middle of a fight.

you came to one of their photoshoots for the new album and it all started well.  

you'll talk to some of the members and watch how mark would pose for the pictures, getting all dressed up and makeup done beforehand.

after the photoshoot you and the rest of the members were all talking, having fun until you started complaining about the LONG ASS RIDE (sorry not sorry) you had to take back home on the bus.

cause it late af and it's really not the safest to head back.

“well, why did you come anyway?”

mark asked, being well annoyed since he was most likely tired from all the things they had on their schedule, just wanting to go home and get some rest for another busy schedule the next day.

“because I wanted to see you”

“if you wanted to see me, you could have come at a better time”

Mark started to get worked up.  basically how the fight started.  

The members tried to calm both of you down although they realized you two needed to resolve it between each other. so they all just left the room leaving you two alone.

You two were going back and forth until you said the one thing that made him silent.

“well if you are complaining so much just break up with me!  You're a horrible boyfriend anyways”

You were all worked up at the moment and your brain had to conjure up the harshest thing that mark could possibly hear out of you.

but of course, you didn't mean it.

anyways, your words to mark really stunned him.  He wanted to be the best boyfriend possible and he tried his hardest to find time for you, but sometimes just wasn't the best.

Let’s just say that he totally stormed out of the room, pushing you forcefully out of the way to get to the door

He was mad

Very mad

You’ve never seen him so angry, you’ve definitely gone too far this time.

You ran out to try to stop him, knowing that what you’ve said had hurt him so much even though you didn’t mean a single thing.

But all he did was push you out of the way before the other members had to get involved.

Doyoung and Yuta held onto you, not letting you run after mark before he unintentionally hurts you.

Johnny and Taeyong ran after Mark, hoping to get a sense of what we on between you two.

(Make-up/postfight)

It’s been a week and Mark hasn’t spoken a word to you since.

Not even a call or a text.

You were freaking out. Maybe Mark had moved on already, breaking up with you without even informing you...

That really made your week hell

The thought of not even getting to know if he’s broken up with you.

You’ve seen the news anyways, mark and the rest of Nct were still in the middle of promotions and they all look happy...

It made you think anyways. You really felt bad about saying those things to mark. You loved him...you really do love him. You would give everything up for him.

How can you be so stupid?

The whole week you cried as you tried to get ahold of mark with no answer. You didn’t know what to do and that haunted you...

Until your phone buzzed

It was Johnny

“Hello?” You pick up the phone, masking your airy voice so your state of distress wouldn’t show through.

“Y/n, I still have no idea what happened between you and mark but please come down and talk to him...he’s been moping around this whole week, depressed to the point where he’s not even talking to us...”

You sat there shocked...You really fucked up.

Hanging up, you quickly headed to the dorms, being greeted by Johnny as he opened the door for you.

“He’s in his room,” he told you, letting you quickly head there to be met with the entirety of 127 standing in front, staring at you in the hope you could do something.

Without a word, you slowly twisted the knob, surprised that it wasn’t locked.

You were met with the sight of your boyfriend sitting on his bed, staring at the wall in darkness. As you walked closer to him, he didn’t even turn his head to look at you.

A small slip of light from the moon outside shined through the slit of the window curtains, letting you finally see his face clearly.

Tears rolled down his eyes, making your heart break as you finally stood in front of him.

“Mark...” you whispered, hoping you could get his attention.

He didn’t even move, not even turning his head to look away from you.

You started to cry.

Seeing mark like this sparked something in you. Something worse than what happened the past week. Seeing mark, someone you loved so much, in a state like this because of you just shattered your heart to pieces.

You kneeled down to meet his face. His eyes finally met yours.

The thing that surprised you the most was that he didn’t look angry anymore like you expected. His eyes were all puffy, red from crying too much, he looked like one of those sad puppies in those animal adoption commercials.

“Mark..” you said, sobbing from his appearance, trying your best to wipe away his tears. “I’m so sorry!” You said, looking at him, “I never meant to say those things to you. I never meant it and I never will. I love you so much. So so much mark. I hate seeing you like this. I hate seeing you like this because of me” you said cupping his face, “I love you mark. I really fucking do. I’m sorry I made you feel this way. If you can't forgive me it’s fine. I just want you to be happy. To be the mark that you truly are. The mark that makes everyone happy, the mark that cares for everyone more than himself, the mark that made me laugh, the mark that made me fall in love with him...”

By now you could barely speak, you were a crying mess.

After a few seconds, a silence still filled the atmosphere.

Not even you could help him...

You stood up, knowing that if you continued it would be pointless. You looked at mark once more before beginning to walk back to the door until your arm was suddenly pulled and you fell on top of Mark.

Facing him, you were now sitting on Mark’s lap, finally getting what you wished for.

He quickly pulled you into a tight hug, burying his face in the crook of your neck.

Pulling away from the hug, your hands slithered back to cup his face as you quickly connected your lips to his.

You two kissed like there was no tomorrow. From all the build-up from the week, you two couldn’t let go of each other.

“I love you so much y/n I hope you know that too,” Mark said in between the kiss, fully pulling away afterward to look at you.

“I’m sorry I got so mad, I was so stressed at the time that everything just came out. I know you didn’t mean it and I’m sorry for getting you so angry at that point” he kissed you again.

Mark played down onto his pillow as he pulled you with.

“Let’s not argue again. The whole week was hell” Mark said, suddenly softly laughing to bring the atmosphere up.

“Agreed?”

Mark asked you both smiled at each other.

“Agreed” you confirmed, giving him a peck on his lips before you laid your head into the crook of his neck, letting him pull you in closer until you both slowly started falling asleep.

“I love you mark” you muttered into his neck, getting a final kiss on your forehead hearing one more “I love you too y/n” before you fell asleep.

[honeyrose-tea]

hey, sorry I disappeared. I finally got my laptop back this weekend, and then immediately had a midterm to take, and have just had a lot of random things popping up. I don't think sending a message is stupid. If you felt like you needed to for closure, then it was the right decision for you to make at that moment in time. I think you should try to read the message. (1/2) -🌙

If it says something unkind, you will know that messaging him in the future will lead to some pain. If it is not unkind, it will be a relief to know. Either way, the anticipation is going to make you unhappy. I think it is better to know so you can move forward rather than be stuck wondering and worrying about something that he has already said. I am here for you no matter what he wrote. (2/2) -🌙

as far as havibg your own stuff to deal with, I totally understand. I'm trying to do better at reaching out to you instead of expecting you to reach out to me because I know you have just as much stuff going on (if not more!) than I do, plus there's no way for you to know I'm going through stuff unless I actually say something. so when I update you on stuff it's never because I think you've been absent or anything, it's just because I wanna let you know what's up! I hope that your midterm went well and that your computer issues are all fixed, and I hope things calm down for you and you get a period of rest after some chaos

sorry it took me a day or so to respond to this. I did read it not long after you sent it and your advice was very helpful, I just didn't want to respond until I had actually read his message and had something to report. this morning I finally did, and it wasn't as bad as I thought. I think a few days of preparing and worrying about the worst case scenario actually did serve me well ironically, because it was way less awful than what I anticipated. I don't want to get into a lot of details until everything is all said and done- his message kinda prompted a response, so I responded to it and am waiting to see what/if he says anything. I really hope this leads to something, even if it's just closure for the both of us and getting everything out on the table once and for all. obviously best case scenario is we're friends again and maybe a relationship comes out of that, but that's all a long shot and way in the distant future if it ever does happen. right now I'm just trying to be calm and kind and not get too ahead of myself.

the most notable thing about the message was that he apologized. I could cry just thinking about it. he said he was sorry that the actions he took and things he said in the past would make me ask him not to reply, and he said he hoped I was doing good. I know that's fairly basic kindness and kind of a low bar but it still meant a lot just to hear it. I told him he didn't need to be sorry, that I knew he was better than his worst actions, but that it meant a lot to hear him say it anyway. I thanked him for it, and I let him know I'll always be here for him and that I hope he's doing good too. there was some more to what each of us said but I don't want to get into it at the moment until I know more. still, I thought you deserved an update.

overall I'm pretty happy with this outcome, at least so far. it's not BEST case scenario (but I have extremely unrealistic hopes) and it's far from worst. I suppose it was kind of stupid for me to let my anxiety get the best of me for such a long period but I'm glad I did eventually read it. part of me just wanted to ignore it forever or make someone else read it for me, but I felt it was important to actually take responsibility and whether or not I'm rewarded for it in the long run, I'll at least take solace in the fact I don't have to live with the regret of NOT doing it. anyway, this is just me spitting out all my fairly fresh and unorganized thoughts so I'm sorry for the lack of conciseness and clarity here, but I hope that hearing this makes you happy too, as it has made me. thank you for always being here for me and being such a good friend to me. the last sentence of your ask was so comforting to me the past day or so, knowing that no matter what is going on with other stuff I have you to talk to. I cannot thank you enough for that.

as always, stay safe and be well. I'll talk to you soon💞